Friday, February 18, 2005

A few interesting insights

Wanna take this chance to share some really deep insights that hit me.....

Dont want them to be judged......but maybe some of these apply....

- Paradox principle

Its interesting how I behave in an almost opposite manner from what I am originally seeking - like being humble coz I wanna be appreciated for that too! Look at your own behaviour and check it out....maybe you are doing as people tell you to do, coz u wanna control them, drive them......maybe you are acting very very confidence to really try and hide the insecurity within......you're excessively quiet but go on talking at the slightest chance if someone comes to hear....??

- The blindspot principle

Your biggest insight is generally the one that you need most in your life.....its interesting how because its so close to us, we are blind to it...the most common gyaan that you are dishing out is exactly what you need.....but you dont realise it coz you're so blind to the issues you are facing.....

- God's always there

My bracket tagline read "God I'm stronger than you think :P" .....only for me to realise eventually that it was He who was helping me.......through the most unexpected channels but he was always there

Learnt to talk to Him.....and get some really amazing replies....most of these answers are within....no one needs to tell you...you just need to slow down enough to hear them :)

- The test is the toughest

Just went through a really hard patch in life....and when the test is on, NOTHING...almost nothing helps.....it becomes almost impossible to survive...the pain reaches a cresendo and then you are about to break...but instead of breaking down, you break out of it...you break out and come out of it stronger....something within you knows its ended...and suddenly you have people all around, everything going great again...the test is over and its celebration time...but while that test is on, its SO CHALLENGING to apply what you already know in practice......mebbe thats a part of the test....I think the real learning is what sticks to you when you are going through that patch


- Screw the ego yaar

When I had a problem, my enthu to handle it on my own was too much....and enough to blind me to the fact that I was not actually handling it myself.....the reality was that I was dependant but just not aware of it....the ego is the biggest illusion to happen to ourkind....obstructs us from asking for and getting so much.......The I-ness....the approval....all that went out in one go....but while it was there....things were really bad :)




More on these later......

Celebrating the senses

A movie like Black touches everyone.....I wasnt an exception

The realisation of what we take for granted is so often amazing :)

So what I developed was a ritual - a ritual to celebrate the senses. The movie actually made me realise that not having a sense organ makes the experience of life so much lesser....and imagine what happenens when three are missing - all you have is taste and touch :(

So now what I do is this (and I plan to do this once a week) - just turn on my Winamp with some of my favourite songs, and just listen.....purely listen and to ABSOLUTELY NOTHING ELSE....you know we dont give music the respect it deserves - its mostly a time filler ....but in celebrating your hearing sense, the end result is to LISTEN - something so wondeful about being able to listen - being able to hear the sounds ....and letting yourself get drained into them....this again need not be with songs - it could be with sounds of nature as well.....

Similarly I plan to celebrate all the senses - the sense of eating with a totally diverse tasting food menu and eating deliberately and doing only that......the sense of smell with flowers and scents....the sense of vision with beautiful pictures or places....the sense of touch too....

but I started with hearing - coz thats what I love the best :)

Thursday, February 03, 2005

The thrill of doing the REAL thing

It was about 3:30 am..... Computer Center, IIM Bangalore.

I was with my team discussing stuff about our camp - the entry strategy to be precise. Room was energetic, eyes wide open as well as minds......

Another room in the lab, and there was another group....tired and bleary eyed....working on the PnG case study due the day after.......

I couldn't but help see the contrast.....it was cool.....

The group solving the case study possibly wanted the prize, or a bullet point that would help them get placed better. They were not being paid by PnG for this, and they were not even recruited for that matter......

The case was possibly something that vaguely resembled life....the winners solution would at best prove to be some entertainment to the judge evaluating it.....

And on stake was nothing much....just time.....

And the case was to do with marketing....

For us, on the other hand it was almost diametrically different

For us we were doing it for a real life busines.....it was not restricted to a particular silo like marketing but involved switching every few minutes from strategy to ops to hr...across domains......

The pay off was great and we were working for something we owned....what we would come up in that meeting would actually be executed by us....and our stakes were ...our lives and our careers....

Friends came into the meeting and sat there for time much more than expected....realised later they too loved that thrill...the challenge of starting fresh....something new, something of your own.......a real life case study, the ultimate live project.....